Oh *Boy*....

So0o my best friend went to have her gender ultrasound done today.... they're 90% sure it's a GIRL! I told her that it totally figured she would get my girl and I would get her boy...

The simple fact is that I'm just now getting use to the idea of having a boy. I have been terrified. I didn't have any brothers!! Good thing, too, considering my sister always walked around naked....

On top of that this is like raising children of the opposite sex which neither Cory nor I have any experience in.... he only had a brother and I only had a sister!

Is there some kind of weird rule book out there about how to raise brothers and sisters?!

The truth is that my entire life I never actually imagined raising a son!

When I was in third grade I can specifically remember the mother of one of the boys in my class. She always came on field trips and to parties. I can remember sitting and staring at her and thinking "Do you know how HORRIBLE your son is?! I NEVER want to have a son. I HATE boys."

In third grade they were annoying, in sixth grade they called me names, and by eighth grade they were breaking my heart! On top of all of this I've never personally known the mother of a teenage boy who seemed to have any sense whatsoever!!!! Yeah, yeah, I know they're out there.... but I don't know them! Oh my gosh, I need to focus more on what I'm gonna do when I get peed on and less on the teenage years- I cannot handle that yet.

Boys are my sister's thing... she has boys... she knows how that goes.... but ME?! I've been packing up outfits and tiny hairbows in mourning over the loss of the fact I won't be using them any time soon!

Aren't I just a horrible mother?! But hey, at least I'm admitting it. Don't get me wrong. I love the pea. I'm exciting about a lot of things and I'm glad I'm having a son... for my husbands sake. I really wanted this for him....

But oh my gosh, WHAT IF THE NEXT ONE IS A BOY, TOO?!

I have a penis...

....Inside of me!!!!!

The Pea is most definitely a BOY!

On Friday, Hubby was able to come home. I made oreo bon bons with blue food coloring (that dye your mouth blue) and sprinkles. I also put pea's onesies and tiny blue shoes that me and my friend Hannah bought him in a baby bag with pink tissue paper to make him think it was a girl! He was really happy.... Here are some pictures!

And here are some pictures of the Pea!!... Precious little foot!!

I limited pictures so I could add this..... Hubby's reaction to the news!! :)

I'm pregnant, OKAY?!

...that seems to be my excuse for everything these days.

Let me just tell you, I. AM. MEAN. I have always been somewhat of a push-over. I've always let people say or do things that upset me and let it roll off my shoulder. Not anymore! I am one pregnant woman you do NOT want to mess with. I swear I just cannot control it. My waitress yesterday, looking at the display picture on my phone (without being invited might I add) asked me why I would use such a picture, and not a happy one. "She's smiling". She ignored me. "She's actually SMILING, thank you. She has a very big SMILE," I said, almost shouting over her babbling.

And how about that Kroger cashier who stuck her hand in my face? Oh, that wasn't pretty my friends. Please don't explain to me how to use WIC when the way you are doing it is illegal. That ended in a conversation with her manager.

And let's not forget about all the parking lot fights I've been in lately. Don't waste your time to stop and yell at me over anything- regardless of if it was my fault because I am liable to track down your car and key it while you're inside. .....okay, I haven't done that, but I have considered it!

And last but not least there was that horrendous fight with my mother in law that I promised I would blog about.... buuut I just still don't feel like I can talk about it. I don't even like thinking about it.... and out of all the incredibly justifiable times I've had to blow up on her (like when she came to my house 2 weeks after I had a baby- trashing it, starting fights, and claiming I had my child on her birthday on purpose to take focus off of her) I wound up not being able to take another word after she tried to give me parenting advice. She, who beat, abused, and neglected my husband for years walking out of the room in protest of the way we've chosen to raise our child?!.... I don't think so.

I'm sure the rest is yet to come. I bet I get even more rude, angry, and obnoxious.

On a side note, as most of you know, we found out the gender of the baby yesterday! (And by we I mean me, Adleigh, and my friend Hannah!) Cory was unable to go, and I am refusing to tell him until I can SEE the reaction on his face. Hopefully this will be Saturday, but he may force me to tell him before then. After he knows, I'll be sure to let you guys know! Until then.... :)

Fingerprints, Sonograms, & Swim Class...

Today I am 14 weeks pregnant! =)

This week baby has developed fingerprints... I found an article that I just thought was amazing so I decided to share-

Your baby now has fingerprints! Book 'em Danno! Believe it or not, he actually created them himself while swimming around in the amniotic fluid. As he moved his hands, the skin on the tips of his fingers formed unique ridges and folds. That's why no one in the world has the same fingerprints, not even identical twins!

Isn't that just AMAZING? Well, I thought so anyway...

So I'm pretty undecided about whether I am going to have my gender ultrasound when it is scheduled at 16 weeks. I'm nervous they won't be able to tell, and I'm even more nervous that they won't get good enough measurements of all the organs. All this has me thinking, why on earth don't I have a friend who's a sonogram tech? Someone find me one of those!

And of course we have our third Water Babies class on Friday... something that has been so fun and yet has made me realize that I am the mother of 'the bad kid'. No joke... Princess is the only one screaming for no reason... trying to run away from me... pitching fits when she doesn't get her way.... oh and NOT swimming! I get stared at- a lot. Of course at that point I'm wondering where my "Just you wait!" t-shirt is for all the mothers of 6 month olds...

Well, sounds like the monster is awake now so we're headed to the park with our freshly painted, matching pink toe nails... (Today was her first pedicure!)

All over the place...

It's been FOREVER since I've blogged. I've just had SO much going on...

so where should I start? With Princess's birthday disas.... ugh, party!? :)

or my impromptu trip home to Alabama?!

or maybe with my doctors appointment?!

Well in my defense I started planning that birthday party months in advance... but then I got pregnant and everything got a little shifted. I now see all the value in the world in having a party at an all inclusive place like Chuck E Cheese!

And I went home to Alabama just because I wanted to... I missed my grandparents SO much and I know they were missing the princess! So much to the dismay of my husband, I just got in my car and drove.... with an expired license plate and all the while telling absolutely no one of my plans so that they (ahem, my sister) could not make unwanted plans for me. It was perfect because everyone had to come visit ME and I got to stay in just one place. Normally going home is such a disaster because we try to fit in seeing people who live a hundred miles away from each other. We're currently planning a trip for next weekend to go to my brother in law's graduation.... I'll let you know how that goes.

Something else that happened was the official launch date of the church we just planted here in this beautiful city ....just a soft launch though! We don't have a building yet so we haven't been getting the word out and planning a big shindig just yet!

So0o0o today I had a doctor's appointment. I was 13 weeks yesterday and I was pretty nervous because I had been having a HORRIFIC pain my side for over 24 hours. This morning the pain was magically gone and now my side only hurts if someone presses into it.... orrr punches me in the side (I know this because I am the mother of a one year old). ANYWHO... the nurse practicioner that I see every other visit (her name is Glenda, and I LOVE her) scheduled me for a gender ultrasound in THREE weeks. So now I'm totally terrified that pea will not open up those legs as early as 16 weeks!!! And I'm having to pay for this ultrasound.... I sure can't pay for two. So don't be surprised in three weeks when I'm telling you all to pray for pea to spread 'em wide! ...It'll be the only time I ask, promise! :)

Princess has her second swim class in the morning... which is just ridiculously fun! I'll definitely keep you updated on her mad swim skills!

Princess is 1 and Pea is... well, who knows anymore?

I thought today would be sadder than it was....

Instead I was just overwhelmed with thanks for my princess and turned around and gave all the glory to God for the little life she's lead so far. When I say I couldn't be more thankful, I'm not kidding! I love her more than life itself.... but I'm sure none of you know anything about that. ;)

But let me tell you about our trip to look for a birthday present. The princess's latest fascination is baby dolls, so I decided to go to the store and look for a newer and nice baby for her birthday. Apparently being one means that she is old enough to actually realize that she is in an aisle... full of toys... that are meant for her. She screamed, and she pitched a fit, and she pointed at things begging for them. Woah, woah, woah..... when did you turn into a TODDLER, missy?? Needless to say we looked over the selection of what seemed to be about 80% dolls of African American descent and left..... because I've finally reached the point where my child is the one having a temper tantrum in the toy aisle. ::sigh::

Anywho, I had another appointment today to see if all the complications from last time had resolved. I've had no further spotting and the ultrasound showed that blood had resolved... it also showed my precious pea squirming around in there!!



Isn't he/she CUTE?! haha The tech felt it necessary to explain to me that was just the cord and not a boy part.... yeah, lady, I think I coulda figured that out. Anywho, the babe had a whopping heartbeat of 179!!! Adleigh's stayed in the 140's so this was new to me. If the old wive's tale is true, then it's another girl.... but heart rate has been proven to have no relation to what the baby's sex is so we'll see in another 8-12 weeks! Did I mention they also got a different measurement today?! ....only by a day meaning the pea measured at 9 weeks 1 day and giving me a due date of November 16th, but the doc told me to always keep the due date of the original ultrasound so the 17th it is! :) My wonderful doctor also finally gave me a prescription for phenergan which might be the best drug ever invented! I just wish I could take it more, but I'm a little weary of making pea drowsy too! Well, we're off to have a birthday dinner of mac & cheese! yum!

Happy Birthday Princess!

I'm having a really hard time right now.

As of April 14th, at 12:00 am EST my princess is one year old.

I've been planning this party for two months. I've been thinking about every little detail for a year! But that didn't change the fact that after I became pregnant her birthday plans got pushed to the back of my mind. SO I've been spending this week in a hot mess trying to figure things out. But give me a break! This is my first time planning one of these things!

On top of it all I just absolutely cannot believe it has been a year since she came into the world. Technically I've already spent 21 months with the love of my life, but it has just flown by. I'm so not ready for her to grow up. Maybe I'm just overly emotional.

My entire life I dreamed about having children. It was seriously my biggest dream in life. Now I'm about to have my second! I just still can't even believe she's here. I couldn't be more thankful for the precious gift of God that she is and how she brightens my days and puts interest in my life.

Me - her = nothing.

She is my everything. Without her I wouldn't have the slightest taste of the amazing love that God has for us- and what an unbelievable God he is- to allow me to fulfill my biggest dreams by being a mother when I did not deserve it. His grace is unbelievable and I could never repay Him.

This day has seemed so far away for so long and yet I know one day I'll be writing some letter or blog about her getting married and having kids of her own. Please God, let that come later rather than sooner.

I can't handle this. :'(