Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Happy Birthday Princess!

I'm having a really hard time right now.

As of April 14th, at 12:00 am EST my princess is one year old.

I've been planning this party for two months. I've been thinking about every little detail for a year! But that didn't change the fact that after I became pregnant her birthday plans got pushed to the back of my mind. SO I've been spending this week in a hot mess trying to figure things out. But give me a break! This is my first time planning one of these things!

On top of it all I just absolutely cannot believe it has been a year since she came into the world. Technically I've already spent 21 months with the love of my life, but it has just flown by. I'm so not ready for her to grow up. Maybe I'm just overly emotional.

My entire life I dreamed about having children. It was seriously my biggest dream in life. Now I'm about to have my second! I just still can't even believe she's here. I couldn't be more thankful for the precious gift of God that she is and how she brightens my days and puts interest in my life.

Me - her = nothing.

She is my everything. Without her I wouldn't have the slightest taste of the amazing love that God has for us- and what an unbelievable God he is- to allow me to fulfill my biggest dreams by being a mother when I did not deserve it. His grace is unbelievable and I could never repay Him.

This day has seemed so far away for so long and yet I know one day I'll be writing some letter or blog about her getting married and having kids of her own. Please God, let that come later rather than sooner.

I can't handle this. :'(